My Heart
and
Other Blackholes
By: Jasmine Warga
Genre: Young Adult, Contemporary
Length: 302 pages
Synopsis From Goodreads:
Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into nothingness.
There’s only one problem: she’s not sure she has the courage to do it alone. But once she discovers a website with a section called Suicide Partners, Aysel’s convinced she’s found her solution: a teen boy with the username FrozenRobot (aka Roman) who’s haunted by a family tragedy is looking for a partner.
Even though Aysel and Roman have nothing in common, they slowly start to fill in each other’s broken lives. But as their suicide pact becomes more concrete, Aysel begins to question whether she really wants to go through with it. Ultimately, she must choose between wanting to die or trying to convince Roman to live so they can discover the potential of their energy together. Except that Roman may not be so easy to convince.
There’s only one problem: she’s not sure she has the courage to do it alone. But once she discovers a website with a section called Suicide Partners, Aysel’s convinced she’s found her solution: a teen boy with the username FrozenRobot (aka Roman) who’s haunted by a family tragedy is looking for a partner.
Even though Aysel and Roman have nothing in common, they slowly start to fill in each other’s broken lives. But as their suicide pact becomes more concrete, Aysel begins to question whether she really wants to go through with it. Ultimately, she must choose between wanting to die or trying to convince Roman to live so they can discover the potential of their energy together. Except that Roman may not be so easy to convince.
My Review:
Rating:
“Maybe we all have darkness inside of us and some of us are better at dealing with it than others.”
So I purchased this book a few months after it was released, I was so excited to read it because so many bloggers gave this book such high praise. However, like many of my books it ended up on my to read pile and was slowly forgotten. Lately I have been in a bit of a reading slump and while perusing my to read pile trying to find something that sounded as though it would hold my attention I found My Heart and Other Blackholes. And I am so glad that I did because this book has helped some with this two month reading slump I have been suffering from.
This book follows Aysel, a lonely and depressed young girl trolling suicide websites and plotting her own death. After her father's breakdown she has suffered; afraid she is going to end up crazy and angry like her father. She has distanced herself from everyone, family and friends. Until one day she finds the answer to her prayers, a site where she can form a suicide pact with another depressed soul.
Roman, the boy Aysel meets and forms this new pact with suffers from his own darkness. Running from the death of someone dear to him and looking for a way to erase the pain. However, as their relationship grows Aysel has second thoughts on her life. She finds that not everyone sees her as the daughter of a crazy man. That there are people in the world willing to except and love her just the way she is.
And she makes it her mission to safe the live of one boy who has stolen her heart.
This book was quite the page-turner from the very beginning. Wondering will Aysel and Roman go through with their pact? Will they be able to save one another? This book truly shows the impact depression and isolation can have on people. I'm glad I was able to find this book hidden in my to read pile. This book is definitely worth reading. And Jasmine Warga is a phenomenal author, I can't wait to see what else she writes.
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